It's just that I've been busy…[how lame is that!] Sad that the first month of the year has passed and I'm still in a funk. I could blame the anesthesia from my surgery, but it has been 3 months. I could blame the elections, but I know God raises up whom He raises up and this President is no different. It could be that I'm waiting for my second grandson to be born and can't really focus on much else. It could be that I'm waiting to move into a new building at work and knowing things will get crazy for a while as we all adjust to our new environs.
It could be a combination of all of the above. I don't know. I do know that I'm in waiting mode again and wondering what I'm waiting for now. Of course, it could be that I find myself in wait mode again, wondering when I can go to the field, wondering if I will go to the field, wondering why I am where I am, wondering. Gotta get over this introspection.
I did just finish two books recently; The Prodigal God by Tim Keller, and The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. That's something, especially since I haven't been able to finish a book for a while. I start and then get distracted. Hate that. Anyway, I finished both books and found them both excellent for different reasons.
Both books provided opportunity for me to reflect, to ponder my similarities to the characters in each book. I found that I had much in common with the elder brother in TPG (not good). I found similarities to the shepherd boy in TA as well (neutral). The first convicted me. The second gave food for thought. The first made me realize how little I loved the Father for being the Father, yet it encouraged me to enter into closer relation to Him. The second provided opportunity to reflect on my journey and to see if I was daring to follow God's call or settling for the mediocre. It was sometimes unsettling.
Reading again is good. Introspection is ok. It's still winter. It's the season for introspection, but I think I'm ready for spring.
All Things Elda 