First full day of winter 2019. Sitting here at home reflecting on the year as it quickly winds down. It’s been a rough year on several fronts, personally and in the larger world sphere. I won’t go much into the larger other than to say I’ve been grieved much of the year by what has transpired, praying for relief, not just for myself, but for so many that are directly affected by it. Fortunately, I’ve been somewhat removed from that, but my heart aches for those impacted.
Now, on the personal front, there have been changes. As was noted in a previous post, I am no longer employed, at least not in a professional, corporate, 9 to 5 sense. I am working though, at trying to figure out a new way of work that doesn’t leave me… destitute. Poor is fine. Poor working actor, I will gladly accept.
I spent yesterday afternoon at the beach, sitting, watching the sun set. Had some cheese and crackers, as well as a cigar to enjoy afterwards along with an adult beverage… It’s been a while since I enjoyed a cigar at the beach, probably a year since. I was even privileged to witness a proposal there on the beach, which was joyously accepted. I yelled my congratulations to them as they left, young love looking forward to the future, as I sat reflecting on the past.
I’ve shared this song before, but heard it earlier today and the tune seemed to reflect my present mood. I love the video. Wouldn’t it be fascinating to just turn a wheel and time would be stripped away to a younger age? There are occasions when I think it would be nice, especially when I’m looking in the mirror…, but then I wouldn’t be who I am or have what I have without all that has gone before, crazy and heartbreaking and reckless as it was at times. I am that crazy, reckless, heartbroken person. I have scars, visible and invisible, that tell quite a story… I like that story. Hopefully, I will have time to share it…
All Things Elda 