I’m tired tonight, but it’s a good tired… Running around at work today was stressful, but workout tonight at the track was helpful. Helped me focus, which is a rare occurrence lately, it seems. So many things coming at me at work, I find myself jumping from one thought to another, not always sure the thought is complete before I am done with it and moving on to the next. Reacting is a good word for me lately. I try to plan, but suddenly find myself in reaction mode. I don’t think I like that mode, but it’s what it is.
At the track tonight, I was just focused on breathing. In and out. There were times when I wasn’t sure if I had another breath, but they kept coming… as long as I focused. It was nice, actually, to be able to focus and to know that I was able to focus.
The only thing about focusing is that it requires excluding things or people. I wasn’t able to talk to anyone else while I was focusing. I excluded others while I focused on my pace and breathing. It was nice to focus, but it it was also solitary. Not that I minded solitude. It just surprised me because I’m supposed to be part of a team. Will need to figure that out.
In the meantime, I was thinking about a playlist for my Ipod while I run. I remember someone once saying they should have a soundtrack for their life; music running in the background as they went about their daily activities. I find myself thinking the same thing at times. I may have a life about “nothing,” but it has background music.
Andy McKee will be part of that soundtrack.
All Things Elda 